I am unsure of what to expect but feel excited and curious about the stay.I feel unprepared, thinking that the stay could both give me material and wake something inside me. My state of mind is affected by the darkness outside. It makes me low on energy. I wonder how I will feel while living in Sisters Home. The gentle pace might help me, but the small rooms with dimmed…
Time went by so fast, tomorrow sisters academy starts for me. My body feels ready, my mind is not sure yet. I don’t have any expectations really and am open for everything. Exited and a bit nervous at the same time. Dont know exactly what is to come, but I have a feeling it is going to be special.
Time, I feel it all around me, since i’m constantly running late and going nowhere. I feel the tight grip around my neck and hands, as i’m chained to the time, every minut every second. This will be my search for a break. This will be my attempt to stop the time and let the world pass by.
I feel a bit numb. I’ve been sleeping too little and it makes me feel like a zombie. My brain is working in slowmotion and my mind doesn’t focus on one thought but floats around instead. I’m on a full train my body is closed and focused on itself. I’m making sure not to look at anyone or create contact. If I could I’d like to be alone in silence….